Scattered thoughts

Well hello. Good Morning to anyone who decides to read this.
Although frankly If you don’t read it or care to read this
I won’t be hurt.
I just like writing and getting my thoughts and feelings out there so here I am.

First off I haven’t been so sleep all night and it’s like 8am.
I swear Im nocturnal.
But these nocturnal tendencies really need to end
because im pretty sure it’s soooo unhealthy to sleep all day stay up all night
and then take numerous naps during the day.

My mind seems to be wandering a lot this morning so bare with me.

I always wonder why bad things happen in life.
Is it to teach us a lesson?
Or prove we can make it through some shit?
Or maybe it’s because bad things happen no matter how hard you try to avoid them.

And why does the universe bring us towards the people who
are going to hurt us the most.
Why does the universe let you meet people who are one day going to hurt you?
I guess I’ll never know.

Also completely un related not that I really have a set topic here or anything
but I really miss my love.
It’s been over a month and A half and still all of this is going on.
I just can’t wait until everything feels okay again.

Im just happy and sad at the same time and trying to come to and understanding of how that makes any sense.
I just try to enjoy the things in life that bring me happiness.. even if I am feeling down or like everything is falling apart.

I guess it’s Friday and im Alive so theirs two positive things.

I honestly don’t know where I was going with this post.
Just some early morning thoughts and feelings for you.
I apologize for this post being a little scattered and all over the place but thats basically what my mind and life is right now.

Crave

I crave your flaws, and everything that created those scars on your heart.
I crave everything that comes with your existence.
your sun, your thunderstorms, your moon, your hurricanes, your constellations, your tornados.
I crave your aching soul.

I will still look at you like
you placed every star individually in
the sky for me.
Because without you my sky would be empty

And if you ever feel lonely
look up at the moon
because chances are im looking at it too..

Drunk love

Press your lips against mine even if the bottle has already touched them
I don’t mind I swear it’s fine. Just promise me your I love you’s will still
mean the same tomorrow.

Alcohol tastes better when im tasting it from your lips
It won’t solve our problems..only make us forget

People say drunk texts are the worst to get
but how can you not like them when
it’s you in there head

sometimes you read things or see things that hurt
but you try to forget them and pretend your not hurt

They say mistakes are proof that your trying
can’t you see that im trying so hard

But we destroy our bodies for a peace of
mind that we will never receive

so poor another shot of whiskey
cause it’s what we both need

with a bottle of wine and you by my side
I may be able to sleep tonight

my tears are falling only for you
I miss you so much won’t you please miss me to

Sober or drunk it’s always you
just know that I, will always love you